Post by fizz on Mar 9, 2009 4:59:31 GMT -5
im finding it hard to talk about whats going round in my head and i have upset people close to me as for the past couple of days iv not been around much for other people and have been basicly feeling sorry for myself which i guess is allowed from time to time i do feel very selfish for it tho and its not like me to be like this.
Iv not cut for 14days and its hell know one told me it was going to be this hard some days are better than others but the thoughts and the feelings are still there and when i get real down or angry i want to so badly and i try and do something else which at the moment is working for me but its not going to in the long run as im shutting people off i like to sit or lie in my bed and watch a film i dont want to be round anyone and i dont reply or pick up my mobile which is now hurting others but its my way of coping im hoping it will pass and its just like the first stage but i dont even know what to say to any one its not getting any better i feel like its getting worse
thanks for reading
fizz
Iv not cut for 14days and its hell know one told me it was going to be this hard some days are better than others but the thoughts and the feelings are still there and when i get real down or angry i want to so badly and i try and do something else which at the moment is working for me but its not going to in the long run as im shutting people off i like to sit or lie in my bed and watch a film i dont want to be round anyone and i dont reply or pick up my mobile which is now hurting others but its my way of coping im hoping it will pass and its just like the first stage but i dont even know what to say to any one its not getting any better i feel like its getting worse
thanks for reading
fizz